I sat in my shower crying, feeling scared, uncertain, and doubting myself and my abilities to scale my business and provide for my children in the way I want to provide for them. I recognized these emotions and feelings as fear since it was something I have felt since becoming a mother at the age of 18. It is the fear of the unknown, uncertain where and how things will happen, the crippling feeling of paralysis because I am not sure how.
Over the past couple of weeks, some of this has come back to me like an old friend I did not invite back in, but there it was staring me in the face to confront me and challenge me. Anxiety, which stems from fear, can knock us on our asses when we are not paying attention to our thought processes (mindset) and energy.
In my past, I have had to learn to stay focused and determined. I believe this was innate in me since I had my son so young. I was a new high school graduate the year I got pregnant. I had little real-world skills, some work experience, and very little money from working a part-time job. The defining moment for me was the day I found out I was pregnant. I knew I HAD to make a good life for my son and me. There was no other option.
I could have let fear cripple me. Maybe because I was young and naive and thought this is how life is- you work hard for the things you want to achieve. Instead of being scared, I leveled up. I am not saying it was easy or a smooth ride.
I am saying for me, failure was not an option!
I had real reasons to make shit happen and level up my mind, body, and spirit. That was the love for my child. Those reasons eventually grew into a love for my children, myself, helping and serving others, and building a new legacy for my family.
Yes, you can say I have overcome many obstacles, dealt with some hard things in my life, and also experienced many, many successes. You might be wondering, if that is true then how and why do I still experience ups and downs, setbacks, doubting myself. The truth is I am human, and I will always be a work in process- just like you.
Here I was over the past couple of weeks, dealing with some ups and downs with my energy levels and these feelings of fear, uncertainty, and doubt. The fear of not knowing how to scale my business and scale it quickly in a way that serves my audience and my family.
I had to sit there and allow myself to feel and ride out the wave of my emotions. I had to fully experience them so I can learn from them. What they were showing me is that I have not been attending to my mindset. I had regressed in some ways in my healthy habits and routines that keep my mind, body, and spirit in alignment.
I had to stop, breath, and reset. Because I knew if that little girl in me made this far, then I can keep going. I could keep healing, growing, and elevating my life.
I took this as an opportunity to look within, dive deeper into my feelings, my fears, my wound, and the story I was believing about myself.
I realized this anxiety was coming from an old belief system that comes back up from time to time. I decided to, once again, say to thank you for showing me and to hell with these old story of “I don’t know how, I am not worthy or capable.” Instead,
I chose to choose again!
I chose to believe in myself!
I chose to remember the promise of abundance, worthiness, miracles, and connection to love- source energy.
I am no different than you are. We are both spiritual beings having a very real human experience with dreams, desires, and goals.
If you are finding yourself stuck, plateaued, or regressing to old patterns of thinking, or finding yourself feeling unfulfilled or unhappy and searching for more, then I am here today to inspire you to pick yourself back up, confront those annoying old stories that keep you down, and reset your mindset by choosing again. Choosing empowering thoughts and take action. You are capable, worthy, deserving, and able because failure is not an option! Keep going. You got this!
What are you choosing for yourself today? State it with power!
Thank you for sharing, and for your bravery to state it for yourself with power. You inspire me and those around you! We rise together!
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